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Surprisingly Fast Squats, Phone Sent Back, Messed Up Order, Snow

Monday I started The Way of Kings, so now I’d rather get back to reading, and also to playing Ascension to the Throne, and did so as I wrote this, on and off, over two days, before posting it on the third. Not sure what the week’s second post will be at this point, and after two non-personal posts last week I could afford to split this and get away with two personal ones this week, but maybe I’ll figure something out by Sunday evening. Not that it matters, of course, and while I’m at it I’ll also mention here that I had two days with no visits in the period covered by this post, January 30 and February 2.

Speaking of February 2, I noticed at least two more double middle clicks that day, the first ones in a long time, and it’s possible that there were actually three or four, and it also seems to miss scrolling up more frequently, though it may also be the fact that I’m paying more attention, and the warranty expired by now anyway, so that’s that. On the other hand, did something to my back again before going to bed that morning, and I had to be careful all day. It wasn’t too bad, and it got better after that, but I still feel something there, so still need to be at least somewhat careful.

February 2 was also a day when I timed my squats again, doing them in 2:16. Another such day was January 25, when the time was 2:11, but the most notable one was January 31, when I managed 2:02, beating the previous record by four seconds! And what’s more surprising is how easily I managed that, and that I did it in the kitchen, while slipping a bit as well! When I looked at the time at 50 and saw 1:00 I wondered whether I had miscounted, but then I looked again at 75 and it was 1:30, so I maintained that pace, and then was only a little bit slower at the end, making it quite clear that I had counted correctly all along. And I wasn’t even exhausted, it didn’t feel like anything was failing before the end… Didn’t even really feel like I was pushing that hard, for that matter, and there were moments when I was thinking to go slower because it felt too strange and I didn’t want a new record when it didn’t feel like one. But I got it anyway, and now I’m a bit frustrated because I know I’d have finished a few seconds faster, taking it below two minutes, if I’d have been in my room and really pushing every single moment, and I don’t know when or if I’ll be in such a form again.

Last week’s run was on January 28, after I woke up at 12:20 PM and stayed up, though I had set the alarm for 1:30 PM. Had the usual stuff, with jam on the last of those large doughnuts, which I had saved just for this purpose, as something sweet, then went out at 2:55 PM, wearing the jacket for the walk but just having the running t-shirt, with an undershirt underneath, on otherwise, since the reported temperature was 10-11°C and it was sunny. It was windy though, and that was a bit of a problem, but nevertheless the time was 47:23.04, with sector times of 4:18.55, 5:02 (5:01.82), 5:46.52, 4:25 (4:24.22), 5:00 (4:59.92), 5:47.25, 4:25.39, 5:06 (5:05.87), 5:47 (5:46.88) and 1:47 (1:46.62), making for lap times of 15:06.89, 15:12 (15:11.39) and 15:18.14.
There were some people, but other than having to weave or go the long way around there were few problems caused by them, even if one was on the very first sector, when I had to take to the grass to go around a group, losing a bit of time even though I actually cut a corner by doing so, since it was in a spot where there’s a slope towards the lake and I had to be careful. There was something of a roadblock on sector three of lap three, a group being gathered in one spot and others trying to pass through it as well, but it wasn’t too bad. Otherwise, some leg muscles complained early on, and then for a while, on lap two, it seemed that I was about to get a cramp in my right leg, but those issues sorted themselves out after a while. The worse problem, as I already mentioned, was the wind, and I had a bit of a hard time breathing as I went along because of it, feeling really out of breath on the final sector, but that was also because I pushed really hard on sector three of lap three. After the first sector, meant to just stay under 48 minutes, but also thought of 47:30 and decided to try to go for it after lap two, getting a poor sector two of lap three but thinking I still had a chance if I gave everything from then on, and managing it in the end. Had a headache after that, and my nose was irritated again, but it wasn’t too bad.

This week’s run was Tuesday, when I had set the alarm for 2 PM but woke up on my own just a couple of minutes earlier. One problem was that I had to wait for the guy to pick up my phone again, since it wasn’t actually fixed, the same behavior appearing again, and possibly getting even worse, in the sense that it didn’t even display that message or “forget” the provider anymore, giving me no way to know that it had lost a call or message. Thought it’ll be just like last time and he’ll come when I’ll be on the toilet, so I was worried and also didn’t stay long, and as a result didn’t manage anything the first time… Nor the second time, after he came, but at least it wasn’t a problem while running. And he also called more than ten minutes before he actually got here, which was just after 3:30 PM, and told me it’ll be about ten minutes, so I didn’t have to rush to the door again, even if this time I was actually prepared. And I could actually talk this time, since I’m now using my old phone again and I had it plugged in, so it didn’t turn itself off while I also mentioned that I hoped they’ll fix it this time, after sending it back just as it was. He, of course, said that he has nothing to do with that, and then repeated that when he got here, laughing a bit.
After that, 4:10 PM was rather late for going out, but it’s not getting dark so early anymore, so it was fine in the end. In fact, it actually worked out really well, since the wind died down during that time as well, plus that it had rained earlier and the clouds were still threatening as I went out, but the Sun was also starting to poke through, and by the time I finished the clouds had mostly cleared away as well. And the reported temperature was again 10°C, so I obviously again just had the running t-shirt on, with an undershirt underneath, with the jacket just for the walk.
The time was 47:13.25, with sector times of 4:18.21, 5:00 (4:59.93), 5:45.73, 4:23 (4:22.64), 4:59.19, 5:45 (5:44.55), 4:21.55, 5:00 (4:59.73), 5:48.38 and 1:54 (1:53.34), making for lap times of 15:03.87, 15:07 (15:06.38) and 15:09.66. There were some people, but again they mostly just caused me to need to weave through or go the long way around, a space opening just when I needed it in the couple of roadblocks that seemed to have formed in front of me, one young guy even apologizing as he realized I was coming and stopped himself before stepping in my way, so actually without bothering me at all. The only time I had to quickly sidestep was on sector two of lap three, when a child was gathering his scooter, facing across the path, I had to guess whether he’ll go forward or back and guessed wrong, needing to react quickly in order to avoid running into him. The main issue, therefore, was just the fact that it had rained earlier, so it was wet and some areas were slippery, and I actually slipped just as I started to run. But that actually helped, making me be more careful and avoiding any problems later, though that care quite clearly caused me to lose a few seconds. With all of the final sector likely to be slippery, and starting with those stairs as well, that was probably where that loss was the most noticeable, but I could afford it by then.

After dad moved things around on the balcony this time, that evening I replaced the paper on the shelves and arranged the bottles and jars in that cabinet where we keep those things there… And “managed” to hit my head again just as I finished, when getting up. Then I actually called Carrefour myself, since it’s a free number and I can call it even if my credit is expired, to inquire about the ordered cat food again. Didn’t help in any way though, the answer remaining the same, that those who answer that number can’t do anything about that and those in that department will get back to me, though the guy said he saw that the report already exists and marked it as urgent. He couldn’t say what that meant though, since I said that this call came after the others made Friday, Saturday and Monday and nothing happened, and he said that the normal response time is 24 to 48 hours, but they’re currently swamped, so he can only say that it’ll be “one of these days”.
This all started on January 29, when I had to get more cat food and when I checked the site of that pet shop and Auchan for one of the kinds, I couldn’t find it anymore, and I know Kaufland doesn’t carry that. However, when I checked Carrefour’s site, I saw that it wasn’t only available, but also on sale at a very good price, and since dad wanted some clothes hangers from there again and I again couldn’t find that particular model in stores, so it had to be ordered on-line, I just went out for the other kinds of cat food, leaving at 3:05 PM and at first crossing the road, to take the free bus to the usual Auchan, but then ending up taking it to the Vitan one, since that one didn’t come but this other one did. Got the cat food from there, and a few other things, and then got back with the 4:45 PM free bus… And at night I quite unexpectedly realized that I sort of missed Micky a bit, after dad took her to grandmother’s on January 26, since my mother wanted to have her there in order to take better care of her, since over here Liza won’t even let her eat and she had lost weight, and she’s old anyway. Remember telling Alma a while back that, as bad as it sounds, while I’d likely be relieved to be rid of spoiled, annoying Liza, in Micky’s case I doubt I’d even really notice if she’d be gone, yet for the first few days I did miss her simply sitting there next to me as I ate at night. Got over it quickly, while on the other hand, after all these years, I still sort of miss Bubu, but didn’t expect even that momentary impact.
To return to the mess with that order from Carrefour, the cat food and the hangers were from different sections of the site, and that day there was free shipping for orders over 99 RON from the “supermarket” section, which was where that cat food was. And since I ordered four bags and they were just over 99 RON, I used that code for that part of the order, and selected to pick up the clothes hangers from the location at the park, but added both to a single order and dad paid for it on-line. That is a requirement for things that you pick up, but not for those that get delivered, so if I’d have ordered them separately, he’d have only had to pay for the hangers, but as it was, the entire order had to be paid on-line, and since we didn’t get the cat food, that’s money that are currently lost, until something gets sorted out.
I received the message that I could pick up the clothes hangers on January 30, but didn’t go then, and instead went the next evening. Leaving the rest of that trip aside for the moment, I left at 5:30 PM because I had selected 3 PM to 5 PM for the delivery of the cat food, so I needed to be home then. But, of course, nobody came, so I walked to that Carrefour from the park to pick up the clothes hangers, and also asked about the cat food, a guy being called to check and saying that they only had those on my order, nothing else, so it was closed once I picked those up and I’ll need to wait for another message if there’s anything else. Asked dad to call them after I got back, and he was told the matter will be looked into and they’ll get back to us, but they obviously never did.
As I already mentioned, dad continued to call, Saturday being told that the department that handles these matters doesn’t work on weekends and Monday being told that the call will be transferred, only to have it cut off right away both times he tried, and after a pretty angry exchange with the person who picked up the second time he didn’t try again. After those calls he made, I also used the form on the site to send a message explaining the issue, but didn’t even get that automated message saying that it was received. Then there was that call I made on Tuesday, and yesterday I sent an e-mail, this actually being the first thing sent from my regular e-mail in a month. I really didn’t want to use it with the connection situation being what it is, but I made an exception now, no longer using another one, as I did when sending that message asking for that discount code, in order to have it match the one on the account the order was made from. And it’s possible that this actually made a difference, since I could have another look while dad took a bath and saw that the delivery address had been corrected. However, as of yesterday that kind of cat food shows up as no longer being available, after having been on sale until Wednesday, so I don’t know what will happen next.

Since I mentioned that trip on January 31, I was out for just about three hours and went to that Carrefour and the Auchan from that area, then got back with their free bus. Another reason I wanted to actually go to that Carrefour was that, on January 27, I received a reply from the manager of that store, saying that she will offer me a discount ticket for that price difference after all, and I only had to go to the information desk and say my name, which I did when I picked up those hangers. That made me feel that I rather owed them something, so I decided to look for gloves as well, finding only two pairs of men’s gloves left there. The models were different, but they were in the same place, with a single price, yet the one I picked scanned at a higher price. But I didn’t say anything and bought those gloves, and a few other things, adding up to the exact amount on that ticket, and later checked the prices for gloves in another location and saw that the higher price was indeed the correct one for that model. After that, walked to that Auchan and picked up the deeply discounted pack of razors which I had ordered from there, after being unable to find them in the store two days earlier. Thought I had memorized the order number, but I wasn’t asked for it, but for my name and what I had to pick up, and that pretty much made me freeze, since it wasn’t the conversation I had rehearsed, but I had seen the pack while waiting in line, so I eventually managed to mumble something that was good enough and I could receive it, pay and leave.

The next day dad mentioned running out of coffee, so at 3:50 PM I left to go to Kaufland, checking that Carrefour first and getting a large chocolate that was on sale, as if we didn’t still have a lot of sweets… Couldn’t find that coffee he wanted at Kaufland, however, and since I had the metro card I went to that one at Basarab as well, where I at least found that kind, even if only in 250 g packs. Actually asked if they didn’t still have 500 g ones anywhere, but was told they didn’t, so I just got him one of those small ones and plan to look in other locations these days as well. Got a few other things while I was there, and got back just before 7 PM.
Found dad moving things again then, in the living room, in order to place the router somewhere else and get the cables behind the bookshelves. And he wanted to talk to me about it, and also tell me that he had talked to the other possible major provider and in his view it’s not an option, but since I keep saying I won’t talk about the matter again until at least March, when that network should have finished moving their headquarters and we’ll be able to talk to them again, refusing to wait meant he went ahead and did that based on the requirements I had for this provider, which are different, making what he was told irrelevant. But the bigger problem then was the simple fact that he insisted to talk to me about those things, and after telling him a few times to not do that I cracked again, couldn’t even read a receipt he had left there, in order to know where to put it, and ended up going to the kitchen and whimpering into my fists for a while, with my jacket and shoes still on. Was completely out of it after that…

Going back a bit, on January 30 I attended that protest I already wrote about, even if I wasn’t feeling well when I woke up. A rib was hurting, on the left side, and there were some spasms in that area, which seemed like something that bone spur would likely cause, but I also felt lightheaded and, well, off in general, which worried me. But it was all right in the end, and I went out at 4:20 PM, which meant I was there early, even going to the toilet before getting out of the metro station and still doing so at 4:55 PM, when the protest was supposed to start at 5 PM and it was a weekday, so there were only a few people there at the time. So I circled around, wasted some time in the Mega Image from that area, then finally made my way to the others around 5:15 PM. Did greet a guy at first, asking him what had happened the day before, but otherwise wasn’t sure how to react to those I knew, pretty much only stood around for a while when some tried to include me in their conversations, and otherwise awkwardly wandered around until I left, at 7:30 PM, not even taking any pictures since I hadn’t felt like taking any camera with me. Considered making a detour to pick up that order from Carrefour, but didn’t have any money with me, so couldn’t also pick up that one from Auchan and therefore decided against it, entering the building at 7:55 PM. And then I ended up taking a late nap and eating even later than usual, since I crawled under the blanket to warm up after midnight, was still awake at 12:30 AM, but stayed there and ended up falling asleep at some point after that, and woke back up a bit after 1:30 AM.

Otherwise, on January 25 I finally uninstalled Kaspersky Anti-Virus and installed Arcabit Antivirus again. It’s even worse now, that delay of a few seconds when opening things still being there but a process which didn’t exist before, awsc.exe, also constantly using 1-2% of the CPU, and I’m seeing a little more used otherwise as well, so when I’m not at the computer there’s at least about one minute per hour, and up to two minutes per hour, used in such a manner. But I’m just getting through another month like this, then will definitely need to restore from that backup that at that point will be over four months old, before moving on to something else.

That day I was also out for just over one hour to get cat litter, meaning to get two bags but seeing that the price in the usual Carrefour was a bit higher than the one on the site. It does say that prices in stores may differ, so it was to be expected, but I ended up just buying one as a result. Then, the next day, I changed the sheets and turned the mattress around and flipped it over, at which point I also fixed that tear. Didn’t do it too well, and it’ll quite clearly come apart again if I’ll pull from that area, if not even on its own after a while, but it should be good enough for now. And, speaking of my bed, the following night I was in it at 4 AM, though I pretty much just tossed and turned until the time when I usually go to sleep.

Last but not least, Wednesday night winter finally came. It seemed like we’ll get no trace of it this time around, but we now finally have some snow. The temperatures will increase again and it won’t last, but there’s at least this taste of it, and today I’ll actually go out for a while. There was a lot of wind as well, and heard that about 100 trees, plus various other things, fell in Bucharest, but it was nothing compared to what other parts of the country experienced, with the wind speed going well over 100 km/h, leaving hundreds of thousands without electricity, damaging buildings or even taking entire roofs away. It even reached over 150 km/h in the mountains, and even around 200 km/h in brief, localized phenomena that completely wiped out hectares of forest! That was terrible, but it’s to be expected as the new normal, the climate change we’re causing making what used to be a normal winter pretty much impossible, the weather during the “winter” months being closer to what it used to be in spring with the exception of some moments when polar air storms in like this and trashes everything in its path.

Written by Cavalary on February 7, 2020 at 12:21 PM in Personal | 0 Comments

Another Success at the Last Moment for Rosia Montana – January 22 to 31 in Bucharest

I’m in no state to give details and don’t know that many either, since I haven’t exactly been following things over the past month, but both the efforts and the success need to be marked. Only attended Thursday’s protest, which was small and quite clearly had no influence in the outcome, and didn’t even take any pictures, and in fact there won’t be links of any kind in this post, especially since I’m writing it off-line, but I’ll just quickly write what I know…

After the PSD government asked for Romania’s submission asking for Rosia Montana to be declared a UNESCO World Heritage site to be suspended, in order for the procedure not to need to be started all over again, Romania had to ask for the suspension to be lifted before February 1, 2021. However, with PNL having replaced PSD at the top for the moment and elections coming later this year, obviously making them want to avoid angering people, it was a moment that couldn’t be lost and a campaign demanding the suspension to be lifted in time for the matter to be discussed again this year was launched. There wasn’t much time, the suspension needing to be lifted before February 1, the exact deadline I saw actually being 7 PM on January 31, but this is the issue that tends to unite everyone, so both the “old guard” and the activists that led the rather different movements that took place over the past three years joined hands, individually or as groups or NGOs, and in the end, despite those in power saying until the last day that the matter was being analyzed carefully and reminding those asking that the deadline won’t pass for another year, so there’s still plenty of time, the request to lift the suspension was actually sent on January 31. They stressed that public pressure had nothing to do with the decision, but that seems highly unlikely.

As far as I saw, it actually started with a few messages and an article in one of the few remaining major newspapers that simply reminded people of the issue, followed by some announcing that something was being prepared, but without details. The first clear campaign was started by Declic, asking people to send e-mails to the Prime Minister and relevant Ministers asking for the suspension to be lifted, and that campaign had some success, considering the short amount of time that was available. In addition, Declic also asked for donations to purchase advertising space on the large displays at Cocor, and actually managed to gather enough money to be able to display the demand there before the end of the month.
While that was going on, some “old guard” activists, including some that hadn’t really been involved in protests in years, made a huge banner listing the demand and also stating that PNL and PSD love RMGC, pretty much finally bringing back the old slogan stating that PNL and PSD are the “same filth”, which had been forgotten in recent years, those taking charge of the more recent protests and campaigns focusing only on PSD and, in some cases, even openly supporting PNL. And that banner was displayed in various places around Bucharest, with some similar efforts, albeit on a smaller scale, being made in a few other cities as well. In addition, there were a few small events staged in front of PNL’s headquarters, again making the point that they were just like PSD.
One notable event took place on January 29, when a few activists displaying that banner in University Square were detained for quite a few hours. Until then there had been no problems, the gendarmes being unusually accommodating, but at that point the Police got involved, and I heard that an agent simply took a knife and started cutting the banner down, and then someone of very high rank was called in and he ordered them all taken in. However, I heard that only one of the “old guard” activists was given a fine, the others eventually being released with only a warning, but after quite a few hours, during which time things had gotten heated outside of the precinct they were held in, where a few of the regulars from the past few years of protests and a few independent journalists had gathered, one of those protesters bringing eggs and throwing them, then simply pulling out his ID card and waiting to be taken in as well. That didn’t sit well with that high-ranking guy, however, and I heard that, after he furiously demanded to know who else had been throwing eggs a number of times, other agents eventually, and rather awkwardly, started pointing at a few others who were better known, giving him reasons to fine those as well. But probably the most infuriating part came when he was bothered by an independent reporter who was documenting the whole thing, becoming even more aggressive, kicking her camera and eventually ordering agents to grab her and literally drag her in, where she was also held for a while, pretty much laughed at by other agents, and eventually fined as well.

With time running out, although it was quite clear that the turnout was going to be so low that an actual protest on the matter was likely to actually send the message that too few people cared, especially since said protest needed to take place on a weekday, a protest was in fact announced, for the evening of January 30, from 5 PM, in Victory Square. Also heard that the Prime Minister came to talk to the few who had been in Victory Square during the day, but didn’t really get any details. Do have more about the protest itself, on the other hand, since that was the only one I attended, though it was indeed a sad affair, and I only counted about 150 people several times, so that peak number, if it can even be called as such, held quite steady from 6:45 PM or so, if not even 6:30 PM, until 7:30 PM, when I left. Did see more people, including some of the known activists, start to leave around that time, so I think that was pretty much the point when numbers started dropping.
Plans to start a march were being made around 6:45 PM, with hopes that despite the low numbers we’ll be allowed to take up one lane of the road, but I guess they were dropped when Alex noticed a group of several people leaving and couldn’t persuade them to stay. Still, that large banner had been brought, and ropes as well, and there was a cable passing overhead, probably one which had been used to hang the Christmas lights, so in order to at least do something with some impact, a number of people got together and eventually managed to raise the banner. As they were trying to do so, gendarmes came in, saying that what they were trying was illegal, and there were some heated discussions, but I don’t think anything else came of it, and they didn’t actually try to stop them. In addition, some people who said they had a protest announced for that same place that evening, between 8 PM and 10 PM, showed up during those discussions and said that, in order to avoid giving any reason for our protest to be declared illegal, they’ll cancel theirs, again showing that this is the issue that pretty much everyone will work together on.
Otherwise, there was another long banner, brought by others and held up by a number of people standing behind it, and a few smaller ones, including two brought by Greenpeace and one by Declic. Mihai Gotiu was also present from the start, and one of the “old guard” activists actually pointed out that, even in this crowd, very few politicians would have been welcomed so readily. But, of course, he led the protests in Cluj back then, before eventually moving into politics. Nicusor Dan was also there early on, but he left rather quickly, well before Vlad Alexandrescu and a few Demos members, including Claudiu, arrived. As for shouting, there wasn’t much of that, a few attempts being made by those holding that long banner around the time the “old guard” was making plans for a march, followed by a few minutes of more successful efforts by the “old guard” after that large banner was finally up. Must admit I was quite pleased when people actually took up that “same filth” chant about PSD and PNL at that point.

I probably missed some more things and messed up some details, but I do know that other efforts included an open letter signed by a few NGOs and sent to the President, asking for him to get involved, and Declic asking people to send individual messages to him as well on the day of the protest. In addition, there were talks about showing up at PNL headquarters in various cities the next day and even attempting to go inside and “occupy” them, as a final attempt to generate sufficient pressure. And a few such protests did take place on January 31, starting in the morning. But then the announcement came, at a point when few, if any, still actually believed that success was possible. This is far from the end of it, of course, but for now it’s a step in the right direction.

Written by Cavalary on February 2, 2020 at 4:05 AM in United We Save | 0 Comments

Brexit Is Now a Reality…

Just under three hours ago, Brexit truly became a reality. Yes, the rest of the year will be a transitional period and pretty much all the details are still up for discussion, and some less terrible things may yet come out of this mess, but I have been one of those who… Well, can’t exactly say I continued to hope all the way to the end that it’ll be avoided, since any remaining hopes died a month and a half ago, but even now I still continue to at least wish that things will somehow be turned around. Until and unless that happens, however, this is one of the strongest contenders for the top spot on the list of the worst things to happen in Europe for quite a number of decades, or at the very least since the start of this century.
Everything has pretty much already been said and written everywhere by now, and I couldn’t get myself to write much more about much of anything at this point anyway, so I’ll leave it at this, but I just wanted to express my… I guess my sadness would be the more appropriate term, since disappointment would imply that I realistically believed in a better outcome, which wasn’t exactly the case, considering my opinion of people. As I already said, I still wish for it, of course, ideally for the next government to have the courage to turn things around completely and for the process to skip as many stages as possible, but otherwise there are also the ways that involve splitting up the United Kingdom, with Scotland and Northern Ireland breaking away and returning to the European Union quickly, as independent countries, and then perhaps a part of England including London and at least a few other large cities, and possibly Cardiff from Wales as well, breaking away to form a country of their own and return as well, leaving just the rest of the territory outside if an agreement for the whole Kingdom to return won’t be quickly reached. But I don’t see such developments as probable, so I’m just left marking this sad moment and saying that, while clearly one of the worst in quite a long time for Europe and for the future of the entire world in general, in quite a number of ways, maybe some will find ways to avoid the most disastrous consequences. Again, hold few realistic hopes of that, humans being how they are, but just maybe…

Written by Cavalary on February 1, 2020 at 3:49 AM in Politics | 0 Comments

Losing Just About All Interest in Tennis Because of Final Set Tie-Breaks

Was saying I’ll add another quick post last night, but didn’t have the time to do so then, so I’m adding it now. It has to do with the Australian Open confirming, not that it was still necessary, that final set tie-breaks make me lose pretty much any interest in tennis. Just knowing that they exist greatly reduces it, since I pretty much only cared for tournaments that didn’t have them before, and if a match gets to that point, I’ll even switch away. I mean, after the first day, I didn’t even check the results anymore, and I used to carefully look every day during Grand Slam tournaments. But, while I also checked the results of the Romanian players and whether there were any surprises, mainly if favorites were defeated early, the main reason why I looked was just to search for those long matches, which now can’t exist anymore.
With matches being at night, at least this week, I’d have normally watched while I ate and also after, until I went to bed, at least having the match in the background, and then would have likely tried to catch some more matches after waking up as well, but this week I only looked if I was in the kitchen and found nothing else more interesting. And out of what I did happen to watch, the final set of the Khachanov-Ymer match was on while I was trying to get dad’s computer to start again, but once it got to 6-6 I no longer cared, and can’t even say I noticed who won at the time. Then, happened to turn on when it was 6-5 in the final set in the Federer-Millman match, and actually switched away at 6-6, though I did check again and ended up watching the last couple of points, mainly because Federer was involved and I also had that Wimbledon final with Djokovic in mind, where I still say that the fact that a tie-break was introduced in the final set was likely why he lost. Or today, when I turned on as they were excitingly talking about the Kyrgios-Khachanov match and my interest only lasted a few seconds, until I saw that it had ended with a final set tie-break, at which point I just shrugged it off and looked away. And, otherwise, Halep’s match started just before I went to bed last night, and I’d have probably stayed up to watch it otherwise, have done so in the past, but now I just couldn’t get myself to care enough. Not that I thought it was likely to get to a final set tie-break, but because I don’t see a tournament that has such a rule as a major one.

Written by Cavalary on January 25, 2020 at 10:59 PM in Sports | 0 Comments

As Expected, Shutting Down Because of Connection Situation and Dad

This week’s run was Monday, and the time was the third fastest so far over ten kilometers, 46:31.39, with sector times of 4:13.24, 4:58.22, 5:39.20, 4:24.32, 4:57 (4:56.20), 5:43 (5:42.93), 4:23 (4:22.96), 4:51.11, 5:35.72 and 1:48 (1:47.49), making for lap times of 14:50.66, 15:04 (15:03.45) and 14:49.79, which also means a new fastest lap three. And to think that when I left, a bit after 3:40 PM, I was allowing for the possibility to go for 16 kilometers if I’ll be too slow for ten again. And I was worried at first, feeling like I couldn’t sustain that pace after I started, but then saw that the pace in question was a fast one on the first two sectors and decided to really go for it, complete a lap in less than 15 minutes again, then allow myself to slow down later if necessary. But I was only a bit slower on lap two, which nevertheless remained faster than any lap since the end of November, not counting the one completed just before it, and then lap three was actually the fastest. Felt better during it as well, and really pushed on its second sector, helped by the fact that the straight was quite clear and I could really go for it there, start to end.
Woke up when the alarm rang, at 1:30 PM, and it seemed a bit windy when I looked outside, but after I actually went out I realized that it was fine, and only felt some wind on sector two of lap two, and a little more on sector two of lap three. The reported temperature was 4°C, so I had the shirt on, and the undershirt and t-shirt I wear inside under it, plus gloves, and of course the jacket for the walk, tied around my waist as I ran. But there weren’t many people and they didn’t cause any notable issues, only requiring some weaving and going the long way around. My left knee bothered me a bit on sector one of lap two, but it got better after that, though I then spent the next two sectors trying to snap my back the right way and regulate my breathing to make my liver stop hurting, eventually managing to do so and being able to really push for that great time on lap three. There was an issue I noticed on the way to the park though, when I felt something jabbing my left foot and I stopped on a bench to take that shoe off and remove what seemed to be a small splinter from it. And since I returned to what happened before the run, I’ll also mention that I had the usual stuff, again with a doughnut with jam as something sweet, and again had to try twice before managing to take a crap.

Got a reply from the manager of that Carrefour from the park in the evening, first just with some basic stuff about their sales changing on Thursday and being unable to list all the items included, but then asking for a copy of the receipt to see what could be worked out. So I sent pictures of both the receipt and the jacket’s label and mentioned again that I could have taken the jacket there in a bag to return it as unworn, then either ask to buy it again, or get another, either from there or from another location, or just give up on it and possibly cause them even more of a loss, and I’m sure that others would have done, and do, that, and end up rewarded for being dishonest, so it seems awfully unfair to be refused if I honestly stated what I was looking for from the beginning. However, I’m yet to receive a reply, so last evening I sent another message, not accusing directly, but instead asking whether my reply was received or perhaps filters blocked it due to the images, offering to upload them somewhere and send the links in that case, if the filters won’t block links as well.

Back to Monday, made myself mamaliga at night and felt rather off as I was going to bed, and the next day as well. It’s possible that it was because of the yogurt I added, since it was the last third of a large cup which had expired on the 15th, and I had last eaten from it on the 17th and didn’t freeze it, thinking that anything would be killed if I’ll put it in at least half an hour before taking the mamaliga off the stove, boiling it in there all that time. But maybe I was just exhausted after that fast run, and either way it wasn’t too bad.
I did just about need to rush to the toilet once again at exactly the wrong time on Tuesday, but that was because I was about to install this month’s Windows updates, since I hadn’t done that until then. But since I wanted to get that done before going, I was in my room when my phone rang and saw the number of that delivery guy again. Hadn’t received any SMS before and there was no point in answering, of course, but I realized he was going to bring me my phone back, so I rushed to turn the intercom on and got it, the guy just handing me the parcel and leaving, not even asking me to sign anything. And so far the problem didn’t reappear, but it’s of course way too early. Unfortunately, I removed that protection screen before sending it and I can’t really put it back, a lot of air bubbles being left under it and the lower part not seeming to want to fix itself at all. But I’m leaving it like that for now and in case it will actually bother me in time, I’ll decide what to do then.
Otherwise, once again there were no visits in either view that day, the fan speeds were once again stuck after updating, so I eventually, at night, turned the computer off and then back on in order to fix that, and Ascension to the Throne crashed twice. Since it hadn’t done that before, I wondered whether the updates caused it, but it didn’t happen again since then and the first crash was at the start of the second fight in a series, after I used the brief moment between the fights to level up my character, while the second was when I quit the game after starting it again to check that it still worked, so it might have been caused by something it still hadn’t cleaned up. And, to return to the phone, I also took the opportunity to put the SIM card back in the old one and sort through the numbers saved on it, deleting some, including the network guy’s, Susana’s and Jen’s, separating the rest and removing the duplicates caused by moving those from the new phone’s memory to it before sending it to be fixed, since the new one can’t edit what’s on the SIM card like that, nor does it allow multiple numbers for one entry.

Wednesday I went out again, mainly for toilet paper, and possibly also another one of those bags of oranges, since it was the last day when they were again on sale at Carrefour. Was out at 2:35 PM and took the recyclables as well, but this nearby bin was again full, so I was struggling to make the stuff fit when a woman who seemed to work for the cleaning company shouted at me to put them in her bag instead and came with that bag, helping me do so for what I had left, since the wind was carrying stuff away. Then I walked to the usual Carrefour, left the stuff I drop off at Kaufland in a cabinet I couldn’t lock, got a bag of oranges and an expiring large yogurt, found a €0.10 coin just past the checkout, grabbed those things again, dropped them off at Kaufland, where I could lock the cabinet I put the oranges and yogurt in… But I couldn’t find this kind of toilet paper there. In fact, plenty of things seemed to be missing, including onions, which were another thing I was sort of looking for.
But I had the metro card, so I walked to the metro station, went to the one at Basarab and got toilet paper and onions from there. Used the self-checkout again, and kicked a 0.01 RON coin ahead of me as I was walking out, picking it up before scanning my receipt in order to be allowed to leave, and the guard told me that I could look around every machine and grab dropped coins if I wanted, which was quite obviously a passive-aggressive statement, but I just smiled and brushed it off… And then ended up hoping I didn’t lose any onions, since the next people again stood right next to me as I was using the machine, making me feel rushed, and I hadn’t grabbed the bag with the onions properly and only noticed when picking up my other things from the cabinet that it had come undone. Admittedly, I had ended up pressuring the person ahead of me in the same manner, since someone was waiting next to me, not even behind, and as soon as the guy finished paying and started picking up his things she told me to go ahead, and I did so in order to avoid needing to explain why I didn’t. Either way, was back at 5:40 PM… And timed my squats again that day, the time being 2:11.

As for yesterday, cleaned my room a little and made dad’s computer start again, after he left me a note saying that it again wouldn’t start anymore. Still don’t really know how I’m doing that, and just cleaning some of the dust from the CPU cooler didn’t fix it this time, but pushing against the power connectors going to the motherboard and CPU apparently did, though it’s also possible that it doesn’t really have anything to do with that, but with something I don’t really realize I’m doing, with the way I move it in order to gain access, or even simply with turning it off and back on until it just works again on its own. Either way, considering how messed up I was when he asked me to turn it off and it wouldn’t work anymore and that he didn’t even look at me then and just dismissed my concerns and the state I was in, after putting it back in the desk and reconnecting everything I didn’t even check that Windows started again, just entering BIOS and then turning it off.
Well, apparently that led to a much worse mess, since when he got back in the evening he went straight to the computer and turned it on, once again without unplugging my cable first. And he hadn’t done that a couple of days earlier either, again saying he didn’t understand what I meant when I told him to do so before, but that yes, that time he finally got it, despite having said the exact same thing that last time as well… Yet the very next time, since the day before I had unplugged it myself first, he again didn’t do it, and again started explaining that he just wanted to check if it worked since I hadn’t left him a note and didn’t come out of my room the moment he walked in, and I had supposedly walked in while it was still booting up, “there was that white text on black”, though that was an obvious lie since I looked at the screen as soon as I got there and I saw the desktop. So I obviously just lost it, shouted, he shouted back, said that what I wanted was “fanatism” and it annoys him and he won’t put up with that, making it clear than it’s not a matter of not understanding, which would be impossible by now anyway, but of refusing and actively trying to force me to give in and accept to share the connection like that. Which obviously won’t happen.
There was also some shouting about the computer issue, how I shit myself when it comes to such things and he doesn’t care, and he again proved that he doesn’t care and likely sees it as a whim he needs to force me to give up on, and then, when he pushed past me to take something to the balcony, I went back to my room and got under the blanket, shaking but somehow eventually managing to nap a little. Was awake again by the time he left though, because I was about to piss myself, so I struggled to hold it in until he finally left, then took care of that problem and had a slice of that panettone his sister gave us for the holidays and which I kept… Actually, that was the only thing out of the whole pile of sweets we got that I specifically said I wanted for myself, asking for it to be left untouched until we’ll finish everything else, so moisture won’t get in it and make it spoil… Yet he nevertheless opened it and took a slice a couple of days after I said that, and then, some time ago, took some more, in fact a whole third of it, telling me when I pointed it out that he had just forgotten that I wanted it.
To return to the matter at hand, wrote him a long note after eating that night, leaving it on the kitchen table, and then obviously couldn’t sleep. I think he came back late this morning, and I was still awake at that point, and when he went to bed as well, only managing to catch a very brief nap after that, waking up after a bad dream. I was again at my grandparents’, of course, and all of this was happening, and he again said that his computer wouldn’t start, and when I panicked he said he’ll put me back somewhere, at which point I ran to the other house that was there and locked myself in. But he called my cousins and, as I was trying to pull something out in order to arm myself and couldn’t, they somehow unlocked the door even though I had left the key in it. And then my uncle was there as well, walking to me as my dad was trying to sneak in from the side, my uncle telling me to take those things I was trying to pull out and use them for comfort and trust him it’ll all be all right. But I said he was one of the very few in this family that I could perhaps trust back then, but that was then and he died anyway, so when dad also appeared next to me and my uncle got close and pulled out a syringe, I kicked them, grabbed the syringe, jabbed dad in the neck with it, pushed past my cousins and ran to the storage shed, somehow jumping on the roof and then back down on the other side, continuing to run and waking up, after what couldn’t have been more than minutes of sleep. And while there were no other such dreams after that and it was 2:50 PM when I finally got up, I doubt I got more than a couple of hours of sleep, split into several parts…

After writing the first part of this last night, finished it after getting up today and then pretty much stayed in bed, adding this part after I went to pee again, before getting back there. And since I’ve obviously been hiding from dad again, that means I didn’t go to the kitchen, so didn’t even make tea to have something to drink. I guess I’ll leave this here as it is and use the file’s time if I’ll only be able to get on-line to post it after midnight, so what I mean by “today” and “yesterday” will be clear, and maybe in order to be able to throw a very quick second post on here tonight as well, to be done with this week.
Should also finally get around to uninstalling Kaspersky Anti-Virus, since I guess the limited functionality mode also has a limited time, as I stopped getting updates last weekend, a day before it let me know that 30 days passed since the trial expired and it was my last chance to register, likely going for another trial of Arcabit Antivirus, since I know it’s bad but at least works to some extent and I don’t want to have to actually try something else now, but I can’t do that off-line and really don’t want the trouble at the moment at all. A rock and a hard place, this, since I’m already so worried and anxious because of the situation with the connection and both doing something and not doing anything about the security software only makes it much worse. I could, of course, just purchase a license for Kaspersky Anti-Virus, but I’m still hoping I’ll be able to use ESET Antivirus instead, yet that would mean going for another trial and seeing that the problems with Vivaldi are gone, which I rather doubt and, either way, I can’t get myself to do that now, so I’ll just keep trying to delay and hope it won’t worsen anything other than my mental state, at least.

Written by Cavalary on January 24, 2020 at 8:21 PM in Personal | 0 Comments