Cav's Place

Last night, a little before 4 AM, the streetlights behind the building here turned off. I opened the window, turned off the computer monitor and just stood there, basking in the darkness and looking at the stars. Being able to do this has certainly become a rare commodity in cities…
It was so nice, dark and quiet. Only a few lit windows in the whole area and only crickets piercing the stillness. Somebody else noticed the darkness and also opened the window and stood there, looking out. A red light was visible through another window, can’t know whether somebody was working with film or having a romantic night, but it looked nice nevertheless.

Since today seems to be the last nice day in a while and I certainly intend to stick to going out at least once per week if at all possible, this provided another pleasantly eerie moment. That was after getting past the required problems that naturally have to appear when I’m struggling to convince myself to do something, to make it even harder, of course.
I woke up and meant to go shave, but noticed that the hot water was cold yet again. Also noticed, a bit too late, that it was brownish. Too late because I meant to brush my teeth and rinsed my mouth with it once before looking. It didn’t draw my attention earlier since it was flowing normally, didn’t burst out, and wasn’t too brown, just a tint. Still, that mouthful was enough for me to be stuck with a nasty metallic taste in my mouth now, despite attempts to get rid of it afterwards.
Anyway, after a few “nice” mental messages towards dad for staying on the city grid instead of getting a heating system, I gave up on trying to shave then and tried again later, after the problem was apparently solved. Then, after pacing around the room for about another hour, trying to talk myself into it, I went out.
Went to the usual park and started feeling sorry that I didn’t bring The Urth of the New Sun with me the moment I entered it, because it was the perfect time to just sit down on a bench and read. The place was almost deserted. A few couples here and there, a few old people in a couple of other places, a couple of joggers, a few girls on roller skates and not a single child that I could see! At times I was looking around wondering if I haven’t been transported in another world, because the place has been rather crowded and full of kids every time I went there so far.
Oh yes, also saw a group of trees that I’d like to have in front of my window. The canopy was impenetrable, but the branches were teeming with birds. I still wouldn’t be able to see the stars, but at least it’d be dark and something would separate me from the world.

But here I am, back inside again… And realizing that I’ve been writing a lot of personal entries lately…