Cav's Place

Two years ago tonight it looked like there just might be a chance to get everything together again, fix what was pushing us apart and nurture what was pulling us together… But the fact that I’m here now in this situation means it didn’t work out like that…
I’ll always think I could save saved it all at that moment more than at any other, that we’d still be together if I’d have done just the right thing then, if I’d have figured out exactly what that right thing was. It might have been the only opportunity I had, throughout this whole mess, to really make her have a change of heart. I’ll even keep believing that if somebody would tell me there was nothing I could have done even then. I’ll keep believing it even if that somebody would be her. Actually, especially if that somebody would be her…
It should have been, as they say, the first day of the rest of my life… But it became only my last good memory… I guess that’s still far better than nothing, but, Gods, how I wish I would have known what to do and done it…
If I’d have to pick my worst regret, it would be this, not being able to figure out just how to turn things around during that night and the day that followed, during probably the only time when I might have had a good shot at it…