Success in Getting Caught Up in Something
Stumbling upon Perfect World International seems to have offered me the chance to get caught up in something for a while, despite initially thinking that it won’t hold my interest. The fact that it’s still in beta and there are lots of small bugs certainly makes me pay far more attention than I would otherwise, so I can spot and report them.
What’s interesting is that I managed to get caught up in it without becoming obsessed. I keep saying that ever since she left I need to be obsessed with something in order to be able to do anything, so I end up doing that one thing a lot for a week or two, then I’m either done with it or I just lose interest and need something else, and if I can’t find something else I’m at rock bottom. On the other hand, I’m not exactly excited about this game (it’s on-line after all, despite being free) and I don’t feel any need to look for information about it from other sources, but it managed to catch my attention enough to make me think a little less about what I usually think about, and therefore feel just a little less awful. Maybe this will make it hold my attention for a while longer than usual? We’ll see…
Nice that it happened exactly during this time. Three years ago this was the time she wouldn’t let me be in the room with her while she was awake. And tomorrow night will be three years since that period ended, the moment when it seemed things could still be saved. Doubt any game will make me get out of the dark pit those thoughts throw me in, but at least it seems to work until then.
On another note, felt the need to hold the teddy bear she gave me tight when I went to sleep last night and woke up a couple of hours later to find it on the floor! I’m still feeling terrible about that…
