Cav's Place

I did manage to go to the police station and do what needs to be done to renew my ID card without running away, though I’m not quite sure how. As the waiting grew longer and the number of other people trying to get in increased, I kept seeing myself making a scene and eventually running out of there in panic, ending up who knows where. What I do know is that if my dad wouldn’t have been with me I’d have never gotten in, since everybody was trying to barge in and I’d have just stepped aside each time to avoid having to say anything.
A silly moment was when I was filling out the form and had to specify the place of birth. I thought I remembered that it was sector six, but I asked dad and he said it certainly was three, so I wrote what he said. After filling out the form, while we were waiting, when I mentioned once again that I was quite sure it was six, he remembered that he had my birth certificate with him since that’s also required. He looked in it and noticed that I was right. Then I also looked on my ID card, which had been right in front of me while filling out the form, and noticed that it was also written on that. Stupid.

Moving on to a completely different topic now. A few of my dreams have recently featured a certain girl and I’m starting to be intrigued. I don’t know and I don’t remember ever seeing anybody who looks like that. What makes it even more intriguing is that during the dreams, or at least during the last one, I got the distinct impression that this is the same girl who often was in my dreams several years ago, before meeting Andra.
Considering the fact that she’s so impossibly cute and that the dreams, or at least the parts she appears in, are erotic in nature, I could say that she’s just a result of the lack of sex for so long. But I don’t think I ever actually had sex with her in a dream. Still, what really caught my attention was the feeling that it’s the same person as the one I was dreaming of back then. And there is also the fact that the dreams she appears in have some sort of mystical component.
Speaking of that component, in this last one it was very small but it caught my attention. The only thing she was wearing was a pendant, but I couldn’t make out what it was despite the fact that I was trying to focus on it. Yes, as odd as it might seem, I was trying to focus on a pendant when she was completely naked otherwise. It was a star, but it was like it kept shifting in front of my eyes and I couldn’t figure out if it was a pentagram, a Star of David or some other star shape. Couldn’t even figure out whether it was inside a circle or not. However, if she indeed is the same girl I was dreaming about back then, the most shocking such part of a dream involving her was reading something akin to a dictionary of the occult, which contained terms I certainly was not familiar with. After waking up, I went on-line to look up the few I remembered and was shocked to find that what I had read in my dream was correct. I still can’t find any reasonable explanation for that.
Back to this last dream involving her, I think it was the first time I saw her face, or at least the first time I saw it clearly. She seemed to have a bit of a tan this time (which is something I don’t like, by the way) and her breasts were somewhat larger than back then, but everything else about her body looked just the same. The color and texture of her hair were also identical, though I thought it was shorter now, but I couldn’t really tell from where I was watching. Without a face to compare I can’t be certain, but she did seem to be a slightly older “version” of that girl from back then. Not much older, though. Those dreams were six to ten years ago (they didn’t span the full four years, but I can’t place them more accurately than that) and she only looks a couple of years older, or at least that was my impression in the dream. Back then I assumed she was 14 or 15, which made sense since that’s how old I was when she first appeared in my dreams, and now I found myself wondering inside the dream whether she was “legal”, because I thought she was about 16. A more thorough analysis done after waking up puts that estimate towards the bottom of the range, because I thought she could be anything between 15 and 20, or perhaps even slightly older if she wouldn’t look her age, but I think the opinions you have about a dream while you’re dreaming it hold more weight, so I’m not sure.
One thing which could have clarified the matter would have been her scars. I clearly remember trying to look for them in the dream, but I couldn’t see that part of her body. I think they were on the left side of her back, but I’m not sure. It’s either the left side of her back or the right side of her abdomen, and I couldn’t see either when I thought to look for them in the dream. But I remember the scars themselves very clearly. Two of them, identical and side by side, looking as if they were produced by an animal’s claws. Each started like a thin line of slightly whiter skin, then they got progressively deeper and slightly wider, ending abruptly in a noticeably deeper and somewhat wider point, as if the animal had sunk its claws fully inside her flesh at that point and then pulled them straight out. They were perhaps a little over five centimeters long.
Writing it out, I just realized that I might be wrong when I say that she was always naked in my dreams. Without ever seeing her face clearly while she was naked (until now, in case it’s the same girl), I wouldn’t have recognized her with clothes on. It still is interesting that she appeared naked in my dreams all those times and we never had sex. Sometimes she had nothing to do with me, I was just an observer, other times we just talked and yet other times we hugged, kissed and caressed, but didn’t go further. I have seen her fool around with others a small number of times back then, but I think the others were always other girls and nothing more than fingers was used. This time, however, I found myself watching as she was performing oral sex on a guy. Didn’t spare him more than a glance, so I can’t say anything about him other than that he looked about her age and certainly didn’t look like me in any way. I remember thinking in my dream that it’s the first time I see her actually having sex, but I couldn’t follow that train of thought because as soon as she started I apparently finished, since I woke up sticky. Hate it when that happens.
All of this is probably only my subconscious trying to provide me with some companionship at least in my sleep, since there’s not much it can do about the time I’m awake, and it might have decided to use a character I’m familiar with in order to do that. I guess that’s not that bad, but I wish it would have taken the passage of time more accurately into consideration and made her look closer to my age, because this way it felt quite awkward. Also, if that’s the purpose, would it mind having her involved with me more often?