Cav's Place

The title should say enough, right? My mood is about the one you’d expect, though that’s not particularly different from the one I’m in on any other day. The difference is just that now I once again have a reason to be afraid to check my e-mail, since I sent her a message last night with my usual birthday wish lately. Of course, there’s basically no chance, or risk, of a reply, but I’m once again afraid to look. Not that I looked during the day since I noticed what I noticed back in October and sent her that desperate message, which was also left unanswered, as expected…
That makes too little sense, you say? I know, but what did you expect? Especially if you add this to something I read last night, which was a post on a blog someone gave me a link to, which started by describing a scene so similar to the night she left that I felt the author had pulled it right out of my memories, especially when it came to how he felt, what he thought and what he meant to do but didn’t. And then there’s something else I thought I noticed last night, but I have no way of being sure…
I guess I’ll get back to pretty much doing nothing. But really need to send what I mean to send this month as part of Global Population Speak Out next week, so will need to first finish writing it soon enough. Meant to do it on Thursday, but after writing the introduction more current important events got my attention too much and it was obvious it would have been a bad idea to send something like this that night under those circumstances, since all eyes would be on something else and rightfully so. The translated text will be posted here once I’ll send the message in Romanian to all the addresses I mean to send it to.