Cav's Place

An argument I had this week made me first plan to write a post on that topic today, but that’d have been very difficult even if I’d be in a good mood for a change, because I can’t say that I’ve ever thought about the point I was making in that manner before and it certainly isn’t a point that I’d normally be trying to make. It was simply a matter of seeing a now-former friend post a link, throwing something entirely hypothetical her way, largely just to start a conversation, exchanging a few messages that seemed to be quite nice, and then finding myself accused of blaming the victim though I was talking about something entirely different. Then she and the two friends who had joined in appeared to get too angry to even notice my explanation, dug in their heels and even started throwing insults, so I dug in mine even harder and fought back, the difference being that they were growing increasingly angrier and frustrated while I was just midly amused by the whole thing, as it always happens when somebody gets angry in a debate.
Either way, the start of that argument actually made me feel quite energized, as the moment those friends of hers stepped in I felt some of my old “bloodlust” return. Then, by the next evening, some “combat fatigue” had set in as a result of arguing with a friend, particularly under such circumstances, but it was perfectly obvious by then that this could have no other conclusion, so I recovered somewhat and just went through the motions until the end, when the insults started piling up and I gave up toying with it and replied in kind. That resulted in me being blocked right away, but I’ll add it to the growing list of blocks and bans which I could even consider badges of honor, as they resulted from trying to debate with people who obviously can’t handle such a thing and angering those who can’t tolerate rational arguments when they clash with what they believe to be true.

Otherwise, felt quite ill for about a day and a half or so, after something probably entered my bloodstream when I bled at some point, but eventually the fever broke and I managed to get some good sleep, waking up drenched in cold sweat but otherwise quite fine, so I guess my body took care of whatever it was, though I imagine that the fact that the heat wave finally ended had something to do with me recovering when I did as well.
Actually, meant to go for a longer walk today, to take advantage of the cool weather, but it rained for a while and I was feeling around rock bottom again, so I just went out very briefly, just to say that I did go out this week as well, and then came back… And can’t say that I’ve done anything since, unless you consider getting utterly trashed in Battle for Wesnoth yet again, to the point that I truly can’t find any possible solution to continue in that campaign anymore, as doing something.

As for my story… For the first time in a very long time, I even fell behind on my own plan of at least putting something in there, regardless of how bad it is, so that’s not going anywhere either… Then again, nothing is.