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On July 21, 1969, at 2:56 AM GMT, the first human stepped on the Moon, broadcasting for all to see because nobody’d have believed it otherwise. Of course, many still refuse to believe it, preferring various conspiracy theories that may sound somewhat plausible if you don’t put them to the test, but even the Mythbusters did that and proved that the apparent oddities can be fully explained in the lunar environment. So, as they say: Get over it, we really went to the Moon!
Unfortunately, the problem is that, while we did go to the Moon, we didn’t do it for long, stopping after only three and a half years and not managing to get anywhere else since then either. As such, while it’s now been 43 years since the first human stepped on a celestial body other than the Earth, in December it’ll be 40 years since the last one did as well. Admittedly, there do appear to be plans for manned missions to Mars or various, as yet unspecified, asteroids, but so far they’re only on paper, if even that, and, while I’d like my assessment to be proven wrong, the ongoing trend of slashing funding for science makes that situation unlikely to change in the foreseeable future.
Of course, I did recently say that I don’t think that manned missions beyond low Earth orbit are justified at this point and I largely maintain that point of view, but even in that post I did specify that an exception may be made for a permanent research facility located on the Moon, as it could provide some relevant scientific information. However, the bigger problem with the current situation is that which is presented very accurately in the “We Stopped Dreaming” videos narrated by Neil deGrasse Tyson: 40 years ago, we as a species, as a civilization, were looking up, dreaming of and planning for the future. Today, after stumbling around for so long, we’re generally just looking down at our feet and idealizing the past.

“When you stumble a lot, you start looking at your feet. We have to make people lift their eyes back to the horizon and see the line of ancestors behind us saying ‘Make my life have meaning.’ And to our inheritors before us saying ‘Create the world we will live in.’ I mean, we’re not just holding jobs and having dinner. We are in the process of building the future.” – Captain John Sheridan (Babylon 5)

Noticed last night that the old version of Google Analytics was removed completely, and glancing at what was written on the right led me to the announcement about it as well, so what I feared had to happen, finally happened. Now, despite having created a dashboard meant to mirror the one I had made in the old version, I’m left scratching my head and spending several minutes to get to the reports that I could see at a glance before, though the old version was in itself worse than the one before it in several ways.
Admittedly, from what I could quickly determine back when I did look through the new version’s features, there were a few useful ones being introduced. However, they’re far from being able to compensate for all the bad changes, and in fact the ratio between good and bad changes this time is clearly worse than it was when the version which has now been discontinued was introduced. But that certainly seems to be the rule when any major site makes any significant changes, as I don’t recall any occasion during the past at least several years when I wasn’t extremely unhappy with the result, or when any of the major changes which I’d have liked to see were introduced.
I guess you get what you pay for, as they say. Or, as I recently saw it written somewhere, if you’re not buying, you’re the one being sold… Then again, it’s not that much better when you are buying either, as products available for purchase, regardless of what we’re talking about, seem to be getting worse and worse as well, whether it’s because they’re made to cater to the lowest common denominator, because the manufacturers are cutting corners to reduce costs, because they’re designed by idiots or for whatever other reason.

If I don’t write this now, I’ll end up being completely overwhelmed by the number of issues and articles I need to mention and follow, because there are starting to be too many things going on to properly keep track of, and hardly any of them are any good. That said, don’t expect this post to be an actual overview of the current situation on the Romanian political scene, seeing as you can keep track of that reasonably well through the articles published in the foreign media. For example, you have the one published earlier this week by BBC, but also opinion pieces published last week by The New York Times or Der Spiegel, to name a few. You can also find all you need about the recent meeting between our prime minister, Victor Ponta, and the president of the European Commission, Jose Manuel Barroso, including the expected conflicting statements released afterwards, when Ponta promised that the European concerns will be quickly addressed while interim president Crin Antonescu retaliated rather violently.
What this post does contain are my current opinions about the situation and our potential future, which you will find are largely in line with those I had regarding the battle between Traian Basescu and PSD and PNL when he was first suspended, in 2007, and also during the 2009 presidential elections, both before the first round and after the second. As you can see from those posts, my support for Basescu largely stemmed from the fact that he was, in my view, the only one on the Romanian political scene with the determination, skill and resources to dismantle the system created by PSD, and that’s very important because I certainly see PSD as the greater evil. Admittedly, my opinion of him has deteriorated noticeably after he returned to office as a result of the 2007 referendum, and certainly even more so after he won the 2009 elections, but it’s still less terrible than the one I have about PSD, if not necessarily also about Victor Ponta personally, or about Crin Antonescu, if not necessarily about PNL as a whole.

To outline my current stance, I could start by mentioning that, after Basescu was officially announced as the winner of the 2009 elections, I went back to Remus Cernea’s Facebook page, which I had left between the two rounds in protest of his support for Mircea Geoana, and said that, now that we are safe from the greater evil, we need to roll up our sleeves and get to blocking the lesser one in order to pave the way towards the possibility of a positive vote at the next elections, because there’s a lot of work to do when it comes to that as well. That should make it clear that, at least for the past few years, I haven’t actually been supporting Basescu, but merely wishing to do what must be done to dismantle a terribly rotten and very deeply entrenched system. I didn’t miss the fact that he was creating his own rotten system to replace the old one but, as the current events prove beyond all doubt, this new system is far less entrenched and therefore easier to remove, which would have allowed candidates that I could actually support for the right reasons to waste only a part of their term in order to dismantle it, eventually reaching a point where they’d finally be able to do something actually good for the country.
However, what we’re seeing now is evidence of just how deeply entrenched PSD’s system is, considering how quickly and how efficiently it sprung back into action after being more or less under siege for all these years. In a way, you can say that the difference is merely a matter of speed, seeing as what USL is doing now may well be very similar to what Basescu and PDL have tried to do all these years, but while they struggled for so long and still haven’t managed to properly entrench themselves, the new USL government, which is clearly led by PSD, has accomplished nearly everything in a matter of mere weeks! That’s what’s truly frightening and why Basescu must keep his position, if only to still have someone capable of putting some hurdles in USL’s march towards full and unopposed control of the country.

I do want to mention, however, that at this time I’m not completely against Victor Ponta having a role in the future of the country. I’m certainly against Crin Antonescu, that poor excuse of a man has no way to redeem himself in my eyes anymore, but I’m still willing to consider the possibility that Ponta is trying to do some good things. The problem is that, even if he may have some good intentions, he’s constrained by the “old guard” of PSD, which he’s either unable or unwilling to remove. That said, at the moment I wouldn’t reject a project for the future of Romania which might include him, but only if he’ll leave PSD and vow to never again work with those who have masterminded this rotten system that has taken over the country in 1990 and still holds it firmly in its grasp. In addition, he shouldn’t have a leadership position right away, but instead be monitored for some time in order for others to be able to guarantee that he is keeping his word, only allowing him back at the top if time will prove this sufficiently well.

Otherwise, I’m saddened that there are no good alternatives making their presence known, no matter how weakly, on the political scene, but even more saddened that there are so few protesters who still protest against the entire political class. Worse, even they only protest against everyone and don’t offer any solutions, don’t try to create a coherent new system, even if only on paper, in order to have some clear and positive demands to put forward. I mean, I can certainly admire these few who, despite all hardship, keep on protesting against all of them, but I find it very difficult to actually support them when most of the time it seems that the only difference between them and the larger mass of protesters, and also between them and Crin Antonescu or Remus Cernea, for example, is that they say “we must first get rid of all of them and then we’ll figure something out” instead of just “we must first get rid of Basescu and then we’ll figure something out”. When asked for actual solutions, the most likely reply is that they’re not protesting because they have them, but because they want to be allowed to search for them fairly, which is very disheartening when you consider that they’ve been at it for a good six months! You’d think that, if they were capable of coming up with something, they’d have done so already…
As such, at this moment I’m quite at a loss to say what I’m still hoping for. In 2009, as I said, I was hoping that Basescu and PDL would manage to finally dismantle the system created by PSD and then that one of the alternatives that seemed to be trying to make their way onto the political scene at the time would become stronger by the next elections and start having an impact, at least in the sense of holding the crucial swing votes. However, Basescu and PDL have obviously failed to dismantle that system, said alternatives have either failed to get past the concept stage or, in the case of Remus Cernea and the Greens’ Movement, have actually sided with the enemy by fully and officially allying themselves with USL, and the lack of any grassroots movements that actually have some solutions and positive proposals to put forward makes it quite obvious that nothing else worth supporting is about to appear either…

I guess that at this point the only thing I can realistically wish for is a deadlock. Of course, in itself that’s not desirable, especially when the overall situation is so tricky and the lack of a quick reaction may mean disaster, but it would at least serve to block USL from gaining full control and offer some more time for somebody worth supporting to finally appear. If and when that will happen, I’ll want all of them out of office right away, but until it does, I can only vote a clear “no” at the referendum, seeing as Basescu is still the only one who may have a chance of at least slowing down USL somewhat…
Then again, seeing as most of the population has so much hate for Basescu that they’re blind to what USL is doing and also seem to forget what PSD did in the past, it would appear that the only realistic chance for Basescu to return to office would be for a low turnout to make the referendum invalid, meaning that voting “no” would be detrimental to my cause, because I’d be helping USL reach the required 50%. However, not voting would go against my principles, and I’m not about to do that. I’ll do whatever I can to fight against PSD, but going against my principles is not something I can do.

July 12 was our anniversary. July 12, 2012 would have been our tenth. Unfortunately, it’s just the seventh that I observe alone, serving as a solitary commemoration of the only thing that I ever actually found worth living for, the only thing that ever truly made me think that there is a point and a purpose in life, the only thing that ever made me think of my future in the sense of actually believing that I might have one. It’s yet another bitter, terribly bitter, reminder of what has happened since, where I am now and perhaps also of how I was before meeting her, seeing as there’s little real difference between the two. It was only different while we were together. I was still myself, but sort of an “unlocked” me, if you will. There was that saying after all…

I guess it’s inappropriate to mention this now, but the fact that it would be our tenth anniversary does make my mind go to the moment when she was going to take a bath and just stopped on the hallway, turned around and suddenly announced that she knew what her present for my 30th birthday will be: She’ll find another woman for me to have sex with that day. I perfectly honestly replied that I had no interest in just screwing another woman like that and suggested that we give each other a present by having a threesome on our tenth anniversary instead, but she said that wasn’t going to happen before she’ll be at least 35, reminding me that she wanted to have sex with another woman herself first and only if and when that’ll happen will she start thinking about such possibilities, assuming she’ll like it and once she’ll find someone who’d be interested in me as well.
Well, I still have no interest whatsoever in just screwing someone if it wouldn’t be part of a long-term relationship, though that could also mean a close friendship, not necessarily a romantic relationship. I also still have no interest whatsoever in having sex with another girl without her full knowledge and consent and without at the very least thoroughly discussing every detail of it with her no later than the next day, most preferably just before, just after or perhaps even while having sex with her. And that’s not only a requirement for the first time, but for every time something like this would happen for either of us while it’d still be something rather unusual, before becoming a routine part of a very solid and ongoing polyamorous relationship, if someday it’d come to that. I said that there won’t be anybody after her without her full knowledge, consent and involvement and that’s how it stays. The fact that she left nearly seven years ago doesn’t change what I feel or what I said in any way. My promises are forever…

I guess I’ll just sit here now, listening to sad songs, going through memories and imagining a different future, or perhaps even a different present. Still hoping that this is just a nightmare and someday I’ll wake up and find her next to me, so I’ll give her the biggest hug I can, shower her with kisses, tell her how much I love her and, well, the other things I said in this post’s first paragraph, and then, I don’t know, maybe go and make her some breakfast to serve her in bed or something. But until then, I guess I can still dream… You can dream in a nightmare, right?

Otherwise, there is something else that has probably just happened, but I won’t say anything about it here until I’ll know for sure and, even if I did know now, it wouldn’t be right to mix it with this, or with anything else for that matter. So I’ll leave that for later, when I’ll have some information and also be in a reasonable enough mood to do something with it. Whether that means later this week or at some point during the next one, I have no way of knowing now.
What I can say now, in no way related to what the above paragraph is referring to, is that it would appear that nights are going to become very annoying once again over here after some workers showed up today and appeared to have fixed the large streetlight that’s behind the building, also cutting themselves a path to it and clearing the vegetation in front of it. The problem is that I can’t say that I ever recall that light working and for a long time now the smaller one, which is perhaps some two meters closer, hasn’t been working either, so I thankfully didn’t have any light shining right in front of my window and could even catch a glimpse of a few stars if the sky was clear and I looked up at night. But that all seems to be over now, and I still don’t get why. What you have there are a few small trees and what bushes and weeds manage to recover after being mowed or simply ripped out at the start of each summer, not a road or a parking lot or anything of the sort! And there’s certainly no reason for anyone to go there at night. In fact, I can think of very few reasons for anyone to go there at all, regardless of the time of day…

But at least the writing seems to be going reasonably well at the moment, despite only adding some 50 words to my story over the past two days. I seem to have somehow managed to make myself start working on two related pieces and one of them actually appears to be going quite well while also helping me to finally write down some very important details that had only been in my mind for the past three years or so. The other was harder once I actually started to write it, but that’s because the beginning is still quite unclear, so I guess I’ll have to skip it and write what has already played out in detail in my mind. There’s no rush to finish it, after all, seeing as I was only planning to write this a few years from now…

It was obvious that my computer needed to be cleaned inside when I got a CPU temperature warning a couple of weeks ago. Of course, I have the warning set at what should be the upper limit of the “completely safe” range, so getting it didn’t mean that there were any immediate problems, but it did mean that it had gotten hotter than it usually does, so I quickly cleaned the dust off the case’s vents, which was enough to get it through that day, and then planned to open it up and clean it better as soon as I’ll get a chance. However, last week I simply couldn’t get myself to do it, so it was a good thing that it made it till today as it was, without any other warnings.
The problem now was that I couldn’t find any of the smaller brushes that I used in previous years, seeing as cleaning the coolers is something I did in the first part of every summer ever since I got it, and using the bigger one that I did find was far from ideal, not allowing me to reach many places. And when you add the fact that the hairdryer that I use to blow the loose dust away only produces hot air and therefore can only be aimed at the heat sink in short bursts, to avoid making it extremely hot, it only follows that I couldn’t exactly do a good job.
I did remove a whole lot of dust, but the worst of it is probably still there, hardened and blocking airflow, which explains why I’m now looking at internal temperatures that are 5°C above what I had during the first summer after getting this computer, and those temperatures may increase even further… The problem being that if they increase by even 2°C more, I’ll get that warning again, which would indicate that I actually made it worse, somehow. Sure hope that’s not the case…

Otherwise, read a second one of the books I got, namely The Eternity Artifact. Thought I might as well get it out of the way, since it’s not part of any series and it’s also the only one that’s not fantasy, so did that, posted the usual two-paragraph review and now I’m wondering how much should I wait before picking up another. I mean, between the two orders, I did get a total of seven books, but it may well be about a year until I’ll get some more, so I’d rather space them out instead of going through all of them in a few weeks and then being left without anything to read for who knows how long yet again…

As for writing, the plan was to start going back to fill in some of the many blanks this month, but so far none of that is happening and, as always, every day that passes makes it even more difficult to do pretty much anything at all. But maybe I’ll at least manage to post something somewhat more detailed here next week, such as a post about our president getting suspended and all the other crap that’s been going on here lately, which could all be very briefly summarized as USL doing exactly what I’ve been warning everyone about over the past six months or so and very quickly replacing PDL’s admittedly rotten practices with even worse ones of their own….