Cav's Place

I have just noticed that a lot of post numbers have been skipped over the past months. Feel quite bad about it, I liked them to be ordered nicely like that. As it is, it looks like I’ve been deleting a lot of posts. Weird, isn’t it? Hardly writing anymore, but bothered about something as silly as that…
Either way, if anybody else considers this to be an issue and hasn’t stumbled upon a solution yet, I’m trying one. Let’s see if it works.

Took this test quite some time ago and kept meaning to post the result but never got around to it. Seems fair enough, and so does the second result. The description for Fallen Angel is “You have not found your place in this world yet and wander as a lost soul. Your wings have been clipped but you know deep inside they will grow back. You need to fly free and proud. Fallen Angels are spiritual beings who were trapped by flesh, and are now seeking to spread their wings again.”
There’s just one little problem with this, namely that I don’t think I’m an empath… Details…

There is a book fair taking place here these days and I thought I’d go take a look… Didn’t mean to buy anything, that’s a scary prospect for me anyway, though last year I did walk away with something from there. The problem is that I didn’t even look. Walked around once so I won’t say I went there only to leave again, but I hardly even glanced at anything.
That happened because I saw a girl who I thought looked just like Andra waiting at the entrance. Seemed to look just like she did in those pictures she sent me when we talked about a year ago, but with her hair back to its natural color. I was startled to say the least, but since I had just noticed her in passing I meant to turn and take a good look in order to make sure that I was just imagining things. But I didn’t manage to do that because, as I was turning, I noticed out of the corner of my eye that she had turned her head and was staring right at me. Or at least I assume she was staring at me, there was nobody else passing by her at that moment. I didn’t dare to look anymore, I just got myself out of there as fast as I could, short of breath and shaking.
Of course I’m well aware that the chance of that girl actually being Andra is infinitesimal. She’d need to be in Bucharest, which would first require her being in the country again. Then we’d need to somehow happen to be in the same place at the same time. Yes, a book fair would be something she could be interested in, though when we talked she said she hadn’t read anything in quite some time, but it lasts five days so it’s still unlikely to be there at the same time and notice each other as well. Still, since I don’t know anything, the possibility of her being here can’t be completely ruled out, which means that it is at least remotely possible to have passed right by her. The fact that she turned and stared at me doesn’t help either, as that could signify recognition.
Just imagine how much I’ll be beating myself up over this from now on…

I just don’t feel like doing anything anymore, or at least nothing which could in any way be considered productive. A year or so ago I was looking for things to do… Still on my terms of course, but looking for things nevertheless. Things were different back then, something good seemed to be happening, at least in a way…
All I’m looking for right now is a good enough fantasy world to dive into and somehow manage to stay there, forgetting all about “reality”. The problem seems to be that I’m not crazy enough to stop perceiving “reality”, or at least not the right kind of crazy for that to happen…

Some months ago, there was a piece of news about Tel Aviv University creating a “Supercenter” for renewable energy. For a moment I was surprised, as Israel seemed far from the most likely place where something like this would happen. But then I remembered Shimon Peres’ statement about developing alternative fuel and energy as a part of the war against terrorism and it all made sense, especially since he’s perfectly right.

The current situation not only provides income for some governments who finance terrorist activities, but also provides leverage for others who practice what I like to call “diplomatic terrorism”, Russia being the prime example. (Exactly what is “terrorism” and the even more subtle methods used by Western countries is a topic for another time.) The fact that the largest oil reserves are in areas which have always been so unstable and the largest natural gas reserves belong to a former superpower which hopes to regain that status certainly doesn’t help, but the situation would be bad regardless of where those reserves would be. Having the whole world depend on a few parts of it in order to function is a recipe for disaster.
A world economy is a nice idea in principle, but until we come up with a new version of human we can’t all depend on some. Even if those who rule the countries which become the main suppliers of those resources don’t initially plan to use them as leverage, others will replace them sooner or later, and those others might have other ideas entirely. That means that any commodity of vital importance should be produced locally. If that’s impossible, there should at least be a local alternative.

Looking at it from another perspective, it’s simply too risky to depend on transportation when it comes to something as vital as energy. Something might go wrong with the supply chain even if nobody tries to disrupt it on purpose, plus that there are inevitably some losses along the way. That increases costs and creates insecurity.
And I didn’t even mention the environmental aspect so far. From my point of view it’s the most important, but this post is not about that. I just want to point out that switching to renewable energy sources would be a good thing from all points of view. Those who aren’t too focused on the environment don’t even need to think of this aspect as such a move would also provide security, independence and even economic benefits.

Back to the matter at hand, it makes perfect sense for Israel to do something like this, they are in desperate need of security and stability. But such a difficult situation shouldn’t be required in order to take such a measure. I think all countries should follow suit and share the results of their research and preferably also share funds and resources in order to end the world’s addiction to fossil fuels as soon as possible. Each country could look at it as a matter of national security, because that’s exactly what it is.

I find it very interesting that the fear of terrorism is used as a means to preserve the current state of affairs when changing it would directly reduce the threat. On the other hand, reducing the perceived threat is not desirable for many who are currently in positions of authority, which means “the people” should wake up and start fighting for their own interests. People should understand that it’s as simple as that, switching to renewable energy benefits their long-term interests, period.