Always Messing Up…
I usually don’t mind messing things up with people (with two notable exceptions), much less when we’re not talking about somebody I’m already close to and especially when it’s because I’m too open and blunt. But this time it seems different, to some extent I feel I shouldn’t have done that and that’s what worries me. After all, I’m completely convinced that being fully open and blunt is the right thing to do, so thinking I should have eased down this time is a problem…
I think it’s all because of me fucking things up with Andra again and now being too edgy, or even more so than usual, around everyone else as well. Wasting a chance you’ve been waiting two years for, knowing you might never get a similar one again and that you wasted it because you just couldn’t do any better and that will likely never change… That’s bound to add to your scars, right?
Don’t mind me, just having a brief chat with myself in writing. What’s funny is that I only meant to write a brief comment… But that’s how my mind works, always making connections and especially connecting everything to Andra in one way or another…
