Cav's Place

Awful dream… My worst fear, in its worst form, perfectly realistic and in graphic detail… And these past few days I hadn’t even been thinking about it quite as much as I usually do, so it wasn’t caused by intense thoughts. Actually, I’m quite sure I never thought about it quite like this, never imagined it could go quite so wrong, be quite this bad. Not that there is any way in which it could happen and not be the worst disaster, but I guess… I guess something can be worse than anything else and still far from the worst it itself could be.
I’m just shocked. Woke up and could hardly move. Couldn’t scream, couldn’t hit something, couldn’t whimper (crying’s impossible, as usual). I’m just in a daze, can’t even believe I could dream that. Perhaps I’m hoping I didn’t really dream that. That maybe I just dreamed that I imagined dreaming it, or something like that. Though that’d be awful too…
Most of all… I wish I had some way of knowing it was just a dream, that it isn’t happening… That it won’t happen… That it can’t happen… Please…