[Old] Yet One More Day…
I’m so exhausted! We had the endurance trial today at P.E. and instead of 1000 meters we had to run 2100 (1000 for the trial plus 1100 in total before as warm-up, broken down in 3 parts)! All my body hurts! What worries me (or what should worry me, because you know that I ignore health problems) is that my heart hurts. After P.E. today my left arm went numb! Also my stomach and everything around it hurt and now my left kidney stings… Plus that I have a terrible headache, my legs are dead and I just can’t think straight. If our P.E. teacher will ever make us do that again I’ll simply refuse to take part in the class, I mean I still want to be alive!
My dad said that I can stay home tomorrow to try and get myself back on my feet.
After the endurance trial today, Rose just fell on Alexandra and was having a hard time keeping her head on Alex’s shoulder and she was crying, because of the exhaustion I’m sure. Anyway, I wanted to go to her and ask what’s wrong (I was terrified to do so but I still felt that I had to), but it seems like Alex guessed what I wanted to do and poked Rose, who instantly got her head up, looked at me and in less than a second turned her face color from red to almost white and looked at me like she wanted to say nothing was wrong… What was that all about?
Elena seemed sad today. During one break she was alone, looking out the window at the end of the hallway. Nobody else was on the hallway, all were down in the school yard except me, her and 2 guys that were sitting in our class. Other than us, the floor was empty, so I went to her, looked at her and said “you’re far away again, where are you?”, at which she just cracked and said “Yah! Everyone expects me to always be happy and cheerful! I can’t be! I just can’t be happy now! Why can’t you understand that?” and she ran away. I ran after her, caught her after 2-3 seconds and said “I don’t expect you to always be happy, I just want to know what’s wrong, maybe I can…” and before I could say “help” she turned to me, said “thanks”, smiled and then turned back and went to the window again. I didn’t follow her, but I’d like to know what’s wrong with her, if I could help in any way.
Elena was the first one to tell me that I’m “different from the other guys, in the good way”. What can I say, she knows how to make me feel good and last year she was the most supportive when it came to Rose… She helped me as much as she could, that’s why I want to help her now too. I mean I’d want to help everyone if I could when they’re down (or everyone except one guy, Costache, I hate his guts), especially the girls, but after Rose she’s the one I care most about, because she’s been there for me and everything.
Today the new English teacher asked each of us our hobbies and likes and stuff, and when Rose said she likes dogs he asked if she has any and she said “not at home, my apartment is too small, plus that I have a cat, but I have 3 at my grandmother’s, all wolf dogs”. The teacher was sort of asking all of us to bring him a sample of what we like and, when he didn’t say that to Rose, Diana said “good thing he didn’t ask you to bring one to school”, then she paused a little and said “wait a minute, why don’t you bring one?” and Rose said “yah, I could, if I’d bring As over no teacher will get into the class, guaranteed” and I said “And if Oana will bring her Rottweiler…” and we all started laughing… That would be a nice day, teacher-proof class.
Anyone that reads this, please go to http://sportsillustrated.cnn.com/olympics/2000/gymnastics/ and vote “no” in the poll. That’s the least you can do to help this poor girl. She’s just 16 and scared now. She wants to give up on sports forever and she’s afraid to come back home, thinking that people will blame her. But it wasn’t her fault, it was just 2 cold pills that the doctor gave her, and the substance they contained wasn’t on the blacklist of the gymnastics association because it DECREASES performance, but they took away her medal nevertheless because the substance is forbidden by the IOC, so… She earned her medal, why take it away from her now? And for what?
