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Today I found out that Rose is still with that guy, Vali. And I’m going to kill Diana for what she did, talking about him to Rose during the last class today, right there behind me. Good thing Alexandra was sitting next to me and she was nervous because she just met a guy and… You know. So I managed to put my efforts into making her unwind a little. If she wasn’t there I’d have started crying, I mean there were a few tears in my eyes…
Last class was psychology, by the way. The teacher at some point said that people who kill themselves have either lost the meaning of life or are sacrificing themselves for others. Then he asked if we’d sacrifice ourselves if we knew it would help others. Ioana (a girl from our class) said “yah, if there were like 100 others that I’d help by dying then yes”, Diana said “depends how many and in which way I’ll help them” and I turned to Rose and said “depends for who”. Rose looked at me and said “now THAT’s stupid, to kill yourself for someone”. I went REALLY RED and I turned away. I mean I almost told her I’d give my life for her and she said that? I mean it was clear that I was talking to her, I was looking at her, not the teacher or Diana or anyone else!
Then Rose said that she’ll have to go home alone today because Alex had to go do something and Diana’s mom comes to pick her up so they can’t go together on the bus, and she made one of those cute faces that she does… And guess what Diana did? She said “well, call Vali”. I froze! Rose looked down, paused a little (she always does that when she realizes that I could do or say something to let others know what I feel for her)… Anyway, Rose said that she can’t call him today and Alexandra asked who’s Vali. Rose lifted her head up a little, said “somebody” and put it down again. I opened my mouth to say something, but remembered I promised Diana not to tell anybody anything she tells me about Rose’s boyfriend, so I kept my promise. When I opened my mouth Diana looked at me with some laser eyes, I returned the look and just said “eh” and went really red again and turned back. I had to wipe my eyes three times before the end of the class because there were tears. Now what was all that for?