Cav's Place

To start with the good, at the end of my last post I said I was thinking of creating a separate category for posts about overpopulation and going through everything to move the relevant ones into it. And that was easy enough to do, so here it is. I think I found all of them at least…

But now… You see, after I started to actually use Facebook, when Ami persuaded me to, around the beginning of last year, I was wondering what was I going to do if Andra’d show up under suggestions. After a while, seeing as it didn’t happen despite seeing most people I knew showing up there, including some I would have had no idea how to track down otherwise, I started worrying less about it, assuming that it wasn’t going to happen. Still, the original thought I had was that I was going to try to add her if someday she would show up, despite not having the guts to try otherwise.
Well, now she did. A couple of days ago, actually. I apparently had a full list, but it wasn’t showing up on the side, so I only noticed the other names after I actually went to check. But what did show up on the side was her name. Just her name, not two people as it usually happens when it decides to make such suggestions.

I have no idea why now and until a little while ago I had no idea what to do about it other than freak out. But then I said it’d be hard for things to get much worse from that point of view, especially since she’ll very likely just ignore my request, and decided to go with the original plan. So that’s what I’m going to do. I’ll try to add her just before going to sleep tonight… Then I’ll go for a walk after waking up, assuming I’ll manage to sleep at all, without going on-line first. And then… Who knows when I’ll have the guts to actually check and see if my request got a response.
The worst thing that could happen is getting a response and finding out something that’d confirm my worst fears, but that’d fall firmly under things already being as bad as they could possibly ever be and me already being hurt because of that, but simply not knowing it for sure yet. A very distant second worst thing would be for her to actually put me on ignore I guess. On the other hand, if she’d just ignore the request but take no other action then nothing’d change. And pretty much any other option, as highly unlikely as it is, would be a positive one, at least for a little while.

At least I now have two posts written this week, so if things go badly, or if I simply can’t find the guts to poke my nose out again these days, I’ll be able to crawl under a rock and stay there for several days. And then, if I’ll be unable to think of anything else, I’ll be able to write several personal posts without worrying about breaking my rules…