Nine…
July 12th again… Oddly enough, I didn’t spend it curled in a ball and in darkness, but that doesn’t mean I don’t feel like it. I may do that after writing this, actually, though they keep saying there may be storms this evening, so I’m waiting for that. Right now it doesn’t seem likely though, or at least I see no sign of a potential storm approaching.
Went out today and bought some things, which makes it the third month in a row when I do that. Got some fruits and vegetables as well, but I’m quite unhappy with what I got. No other options there though and, no matter how much I’d want to, I couldn’t try to buy them from a farmers’ market because that’d require actually talking to people, likely several of them. Was still shaking like crazy when I ended up in front of the cashier anyway, but at least I didn’t slam into the wrong door and keep trying to push and pull in confusion afterwards, like I did last month…
I went with the forecast, which said it’ll be cloudy in the afternoon and then possibly stormy in the evening, so I took my jacket with me as well, to have something to throw on in case the storm will start by the time I’ll get back. Of course, not only that there is still no storm even now, but it wasn’t cloudy at all either. Luckily I deal well with heat and today was manageable anyway, with a reported high of around 32°C, so it wasn’t a problem… But I’m still waiting for that storm!
Was looking at last year’s post and seeing that I talked to Ami that day. In fact those were the last times I could chat with her, on July 12 and 14. Those days were probably the highlights of my summer because of that, with her being on the messenger so rarely, but that was the last time I caught her on and around the end of the year it all went down the drain. So that’s one more person who stopped talking to me, though of course that outcome was quite inevitable, considering that particular difference of opinion on an issue that’s so crucial for her.
Otherwise, Sandra just recently told me to fuck off… Actually, she said she’ll probably get distracted again, as she usually does while I’m trying to talk to her, so it’ll be a waste of time for both of us, which prompted me to ask if that’s a polite way to tell me to fuck off and she said that’s pretty much it. What bothered her was that I told her I was trying to talk to her because nobody else was on. The usual punishment for honesty, I guess. I mean, why would I try to talk to her otherwise, not counting when I’d somehow happen to have something to tell her, specifically? As she pointed out right after saying that, we’ve known each other for several years and almost never had a real conversation… Almost always because she’ll just stop replying after only a few lines, later saying, if she says anything else at all, that she “got distracted” by this or that.
At least today is Neptune’s birthday, at least from humanity’s point of view, since it’s exactly one Neptune year since the planet was discovered.
