Failing to Catch Myself Again…
Trying to figure out which of the many topics I mean to write about I will actually manage to think about long and coherently enough for a post isn’t getting me anywhere… I tried to just stick to playing King’s Bounty: The Legend, which I got by purchasing the February issue of a gaming magazine from here that includes a full game, or sometimes even two, every month, and delay the inevitable as much as possible, but it seems that this is about as much as possible. So here I am crumbling past the point of being able to catch myself again.
Valentine’s Day may be just a commercial annoyance and back when we were together might have been only something between a slight annoyance and a little excuse to have some fun, but now it serves as one more reminder of what I lost. Though her birthday, which was just before it, was likely the most powerful reminder of the two. Either way, these two things added on top of the usual mood and once again made it too hard to successfully lie to myself that there may still be another chance someday, and failing to do that got me where I am now, once again struggling to find any reason worth getting out of bed for after waking up except the fact that I need to run to the bathroom, and then more or less drifting off into the depths the entire day.
Maybe by the end of the week I’ll somehow manage to pull myself back together just enough to tackle one of those issues I mean to write about, or at least finish answering those questions (different link on each word). If not, whoever may be reading this will just get another helping of self-pity from me…
